37 years old, 2 kids 11 and 10. I served in Iraq. Suffering now with severe mental issues.
I grew up abused and joined the Army at 21. I have gone to Iraq. Moments after leaving home my wife moved my kids across the country and filed for divorce.
While serving in a combat zone I was going crazy. I was put on anti depressants but still had to deal with the daily life of deployment.
After returning home I was told by many doctors I had PTSD. I fought in court with my ex and finally got my kids part time, only after drinking myself into a worse situation.
I jumped at the fist opportunity to fill my time and hopefully build a future. I borrowed a ton of money and opened a coffee house. I have struggled for months to get it up and going and now it is showing signs of life.
Unfortunately the debt I built is too much for me to pay and do to poor bookkeeping and poor choices I am forced to close down.
Prior to my deployment I had run a business and done well. I no longer have the ability to make rational decisions and maintain structure.
I know I suffer from some form of PTSD and it has only grown more difficult to do anything. I have put the gun in my mouth many times and feel it is the only way out. I have destroyed my relationships with everyone I know. Now I am have destroyed this business. I no idea what to do!
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